Restarting--Day One Sept 30th

Hey those of you who check this out! I am so sorry for the inactivity! But I am going to get this going again! I am trying weight watchers on my own. It should be pretty good, but I will let you know how it goes. Now I will be putting up my intake and it's *estimated* point value.

POINT LIMIT: 31

Intake:
1 Smart ones Enchiladas Suizas 9 pts
1 Smart ones Ravioli Florentine 5 pts
2 String Cheese 4 pts
3 Fruit Snacks 4 pts
1/2 Glass of Crystal Light 4 pts

TOTAL INTAKE: 26 pts

Exercise:
Lifting
Moving
Stretching
Walking

My general plan for meals that I hope to stick to is as follows:

Breakfast-
Apple
Yogurt (if hungry)

Snack-
string cheese or a fruit snack

Lunch-
Mixed Berries
Smart ones meal

Snack-
Some type of fruit

Dinner-
Smart ones meal

My budget for two weeks of food is $60 in groceries. However, I do anticipate more or less depending. Smart ones usually cost $2-$3 each. That means a weeks worth would be between $28 and $32. However, I will be also interchanging smart ones and lean michaelena's. They have about the same pt value as smart ones, but only cost $1 each usually or perhaps $1.25. By getting both to make up my fourteen meals, I will be setting myself at $20-$22 depending.

I will be starting to take walks soon too. Instead of driving myself to the store I will walk. My weight will be taken each week on Sundays, other than today, of course. My weight today is 267 lbs. My overall goal is to weigh around 155 in one year. This will take significant changes in my diet and exercise. I will try to stay on weight watchers and exercise for 30 minutes twice daily. Videos will be put up on youtube every sunday *hopefully* to show me weighing myself and the change in my body.

Day Five

Activities/Exercise-
Mall walking/general walking
Work

Food-
Small amount of Orange chicken and fried rice
Icee
Breakfast Hot Pocket

I know that I didn't quite stay on target yesterday. I went out with a friend and we enjoyed ourselves. I tried to have some portion control, though.

I start school today o-o; Full time student and full time job. This will be interesting =]

OH!! so I weighed myself yesterday. I have lost ten lbs in four days. Plus that was on a full stomach. Yeah. Though it is not good to lose that quickly, I am happy the diet is working so well! My jeans are already looser. This amazing progress just makes me more determined to keep on target!

-Amber

Day Four

Activities/Exercise-
Work 8 hrs
clean room and move furniture
Play with dogs

Food-
One spinach salad with chicken
jello
fruit salad
granola bar

Today will be fun! I am going to try Indian food for the first time! Wish me luck!

-Amber

Day Three

Food-
Small spinach and chicken salad
Applesauce
rice cake bites
fruits snacks
pudding
salad

Activities/Exercise-
Work for 8 hours
Cleaning room
Playing with dogs

Sorry for the quick post. I need to get some stuff done

-Amber

Day Two

Activities/Exercise-

Random Walking
Playing with dogs
Work (8 hrs)

Food-
Two Eggs Omlette, little grilled chicken and asiago cheese
Two fruit salads (Strawberries, Blueberries, Raspberries, Blackberries, and grapes)
One serving of cinnamon apple sauce
Jello
one fruit snack
small spinach salad w/ cottage cheese and little grilled chicken
one pudding snack
8 8oz glasses of water

Yeah, I actually ate lol. The calorie count must have been 1200-1500, I believe.

I feel much more refreshed as I am in Day Three.

Oh, some exciting news! I am in a relationship now. With my best guy friend =] I am excited to see where this goes! Oh, and I start school on Thursday.

Wish me luck!
Amber

Day One

Activities/Exercise-

Went shopping and walking around the mall for a couple hours
Played with the dogs for an hour

Food-
Water 8-8 oz glasses
One 16 oz glass of Raspberry lemonade

Sorry guys! I was so busy today with my best guy friend Tyler that I didn't eat! On the bright side though, I bought two Scott Pilgrim shirts. Ahhh I love Michael Cera. =]

All for now
Amber

The Start.

Welcome to The "Fat Girl" Logs! My name, if you do not know it already, is Amber. I am also known as rockandroll55 on Youtube, yume-yukino on Deviantart, and simplyfalling on Twitter. The purpose of this blog is to inform readers of my body image issues, the pressure of being a female in our society, and also my journey to weight loss and becoming an overall better person. I hereby pledge to log every single day of my intake, my exercise, and any other random thing that comes up. If I am unable to get on the internet one day, I will still put information up corresponding to that day when I get the chance.

The Start--

As a child, I had long brown hair, blunt bangs, and big brown eyes. My smile was goofy with imperfect teeth as I had and underbite, though this did not deter from the fact that my dimples were deep craters in my cheeks. I was incredibly shy and reserved, though close to my family. Despite all my shortcomings, there was still one that outweighed them all--I was always the slightly chubby one.

Now, I am not saying I was the "fat kid" growing up. I was just average. Clothes rarely fit for more than a couple weeks as I was constantly growing. Even now I remember the insecurities I had when my shirt rode up or my pants grew tight. The growing started early and didn't stop when I wished for it the most.

Up until nearly high school, I was the tallest girl in class. I also developed quite early, I remember. In fourth grade, age nine, I wore juniors clothing and sometimes womens. I was between a size 8 and size 10, but still seemed quite lanky as I was around 5'3", I believe. At this point, my mom did not begin the pressure.
The pressure began in around 7th grade when I was 12 or 13. I was a size 11/12 juniors at this point. My best friend was between a 5 and 8, depending. Often my mom compared me to her stating that "if I was as small as her, perhaps I would be happy." I remember thinking to myself "I am not happy?"

As I aged more and more, my size grew also. I was around a 13/14 for much of high school but Senior year was about a size 16. My mom kept on telling me how I would be happier, prettier, and overall better. That then I would maybe get more friends. Then I would be more popular with boys. Then I would be okay. As the constant nagging wore on me, I found myself often in a deep depression. The insecurities were a nasty habit to break. Now, I feel as a size 16-18, I have overcome a lot of the issues. Now it is my time to prove myself. I am taking the challenge to become more fit.

Another reason behind this journal is I want to become a better person.

Here are my goals overall:
1.) Get to be around 140-160 lbs.
2.) Be nicer.
3.) Bring God back into my life.
4.) Move out.
5.) Honor Roll in college.
6.) Abstain from sex until marriage.

My 'Detox' Plan:
Breakfast- Berry yogurt smoothie
Lunch/Dinner- Spinach Salad
NO POP. ONLY WATER/JUICE.

The Detox Plan will start immediately. I will do this for two weeks.

-Amber